
it all started years ago. back when i couldnt remember.
through all the blank years in my head, one thing remains certain to me.
i have always cared about her the most.

shrouded and unseen.
catch a glimpse now and then.
savage and unclean.
lost in my memory again.

then everything becomes blurry. like memories bleeding into dreams.
then to the eventually forgotten. she was never forgotten.
she would appear in me from time to time.

i have no hope, no pride.
patience burned in my head.
constantly i hide.
sometimes my brain is dead.

i awoke from from a deep sleep. felt more alive than ever.
even still aspects of the world and myself stand like vault doors
every direction. left only to wander where can be no path.

she came when i dreamed.
alseep no, awake was her domain.
dark were my dreams it seemed.
but still there she would remain.

now i sit trapped. in a cage of my making.
it exists because all my life something stood in my way.
now the lock hangs ajar. waiting.

a great convergeance of stars.
from the end to the beginning and from the edge to nothing.
now they can create all thats ours.
a syphony of celestial designs and heavenly singing

i cant see it, but reality it seems is polarized against what i think i see.
everything i dont understand and things im too afraid to ask and do.
whether any of that matters at all, i sit and think about it.

as time passes by.
i will always be here.
look up at the sky.
there's nothing to fear.









